Temporary(?) Deviation

Um... kinda never took the chance to come on line the last few days. I've been very seclusive the last few days.

I really deviated from the norm for a bit, there. Been frustrated with the lack of results still from the job search, even with the most promising opportunity I had to work nights at my bro's workplace, which I have yet to hear anything back from them too.

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And Joe forwarded me and Ben K. these Election Talking Points from the RNC [8-2 EDIT: My bad, it was actually written by Joe himself]. Heh.

"These are to help the undecided(Ben) and the militant liberal wacko (Chris)"

lol. Militant independant wacko. Sometimes militant wacko. "Compassionate Militant". lol.

Marriage quote

But it can also apply to just relationships in general, namely the portions I have added emphasis to:
 
"As long as we're paying attention to the meaning of marriage, maybe we can use this time to reform our traditional vows. I was at a wedding where the bride and groom vowed to "love, honor and respect" each other for all time, though no one had ever seen them practice this for more than two hours in a row.
 
Down with "until death do us part" and "for better or for worse." What we mean is, "until I meet someone better," "until I feel suffocated and blame you for hindering my financial progress," and "until I feel the need to move on." I would love to attend a wedding where the bride and groom felt comfortable being completely straight forward and realistic."
-- Anonymous (comments thread on Mr. Sun)

Excerpts from Mike's Journal

Here are a few excerpts from Mike's journal.
 
"Back in 2002, I didn't really care about what I said because no one cared about me. And I didn't care about much anyone else. Megan claims to not being social and stuff outside of 5 people she's friends with because no one likes her or acknowledges her or gives a shit about her. That five people is more than what I had back when I started blogging.
 
Those demons that haunted me in 2002... I now know what it feels like to "love" someone. The emotional sense. Because what I feel around her I don't feel anywhere else. The care for her I don't give to anyone else.
 
But demons still haunt me. I learned that logic alone can't fix things. Because it makes you depressed to find how bad things really are, how you can't do jack shit to fix it all. So I became more emotional. This was before MSA still, mind you.
 
I'm now more emotional than ever. Mixed in with that love. But what I figured with Brenn, is that I'm trying too hard. The balance is supposed to find itself. I can't live with pure logicalness in my head because it gets me depressed. I can't be all emotional because it's irrational. But what I'm trying to do is be a jack of all trades, and I'm failing in general.
 
I think that's what's wrong with me. I'm moving my mind in so many directions that I can't cover it all without losing it."
 
Fun, isn't it. I had / have had trouble acquiring that "balance" for at least several months, ever since everything was offset by heart break. I just wish I wasn't so inarticulate when it comes to things of this nature that I could actually put it down in a way that makes sense, let alone as well as Mike's writings always are.
 
For starters, one connection that as I sit here half awake after getting maybe 3 hours of sleep as always that keeps coming back to mind is his reference to his girlfriend talking to only 5 people.

"Megan claims to not being social and stuff outside of 5 people she's friends with because no one likes her or acknowledges her or gives a shit about her. "
 
Yeah. During the good times I had around five people I talked to. And that cracked and fell apart as I merely watched step by step, not acting until after it was too late for any kind of aid. Now I'm probably brandished as an "enemy", when I'm really not. But with at least one of them there is nothing I can say or do now to change her mind. Which brings me to the next quote which conveniently is relevant to what I'm going on about.

"Went out of touch with all my school friends like I always do - I told you I wasn't social"

Heh. Yeah, I know that one real well. Typical summer for me: Lose a couple friends, be forgotten by most of the rest.. And yet part of me just hates it to death. Heh, I should know because I have never IMed Mike for starters whenever I see him on, among a number of other people (not counting old friends who I deleted from the buddy lists over a year ago at least for AIM and MSN). Tony I never see on anymore, and everyone else I never got screennames for because I only talked to them in person at school.

"You know what, I am a lucky ass bastard. I live in a decently big house, I'm extremely well provided for by my parents, I'm well-educated somehow (I don't see how I got this smart in this education system), I'm 100% asian by blood, I've got a great metabolism, etc. etc. etc. And every time I win at something or every time I buy something or get something big (i.e. camera) or every time I'm pushed into a situation or opportunity that I don't really want (Germany, Myrtle Beach), I _KNOW_ everyone around me is fucking jealous. Because they want to be where I'm going even though I don't want to be there?"

Good, so I don't have to state the obvious. lol. I'm almost afraid to even imagine what he'd be like if that luck changed drastically. Something going really wrong is inevitable, it's just a matter of when and where, sad to say. Not cynical or pessimistic -- Realistic.
 
Eh... and now my dumbass half-brain-dead self am trying to figure out what the crap my topic here was. It was more of a "cite a quote then ramble a bit, then repeat X number of times". It had been a long while it seemed since I really was interested in what he was writing, and, aside from bringing up feelings of envy, it was also inspirational, in a way.
 
Maybe some other time I'll be able to find the words to lay it out in since people can't read minds (God damn it / Woo hoo).

Two Articles worth linking

First one is a link I came across in a comments thread on another blog, and it's pretty interesting to me.
 
Bush II's Aggressive Removal of Protections a Catalyst for 9/11 Errors
 
The second one just really weirds me out, and its I guess you can say on the "lighter side" of things. If not a bit sickening:
 
Saddam Starred in Gay Porn films!
 
ROFLMAO. What the crap is with this world and these people.

_Only_ a summary

This final report is only a summary of what we have done, citing only a fraction of the sources we have consulted. But in an event of this scale, touching so many issues and organizations, we are conscious of our limits. We have not interviewed every knowledgeable person or found every relevant piece of paper. New information inevitably will come to light. We present this report as a foundation for a better understanding of a landmark in the history of our nation.
- 9/11 Commission Report, Page 14

Iraq disarmed of 90-95% of its WMD by 99

"UN inspectors... were perfectly clear in declaring Iraq 'fundamentally disarmed' of '90%-95%' of its WMD by December 1998. This assertion was simply ignored by the media ahead of the war."
--Media Lens, How The Press Buried The Truth
 
Don't forget that a sizeable portion of those WMDs were chemical weapons that the U.S., under Reagan and Bush Sr, with Rumsfeld as an envoy to Saddam, supplied him with for his fight against Iran.

Ironic that then we find it convenient over ten years after the end of that war to persecute him for doing what we wanted him to: kill Iranians. All because we can conveniently do so given the powers we have now that he is in custody. It wasn't wrong then but it sure as hell is wrong now that we want to burn him. Heh.

I don't like Saddam, I'm just looking at the facts here about what else happened when he wasn't killing his own people and political opponents (which, in 1991, occured right under the nose of our armored divisions sitting on the cease fire line in the Iraqi desert).

Cock vs. 3,000 lives

Is it just me but wasn't more money and time spent investigating Bill Clinton's dick than investigating the murder of 3,000 hard working people? Didn't Congress also do a more thorough job of such?

Henry Hyde (R-adulterer, family-wrecker, chalky-thighs, shithead) screamed, "The flag is falling," when the 'emergency' was Clinton's cock, but now that we're in a never-ending World War III that made Pearl Harbor look like a bad Sunday morning, we stopped asking the tough questions and gave the guilty every break imaginable.
 
Clinton's deposition was aired live on TV, but Dickhead and Bunnypants were allowed to be interviewed together without it being recorded?

Hey, don''t forget - they weren't even under oath.

They were free to lie their asses off on something this fucking serious,
yet Bill Clinton was put under oath to talk about where his cock might have been,
yet Martha Stewart's going to jail for lying about a pennies (by comparison) transaction.
The whole country is just accepting this handjob in exchange for justice.

-- Quote from Bartcop.com.

The inconsistencies pointed out here are just interesting to me to look at and think about. There is a major difference, and somehow I guess the powers that be right now can use the clause "national security" to withhold any bit of information to the public that they can't use to their advantage for the election.